OMG... this is attempt 2 at writing my intro. So hopefully I remember most of my word smithing from attempt 1.
Start off by typing out the obligatory "Long time lurker, first time poster" message just so I can say, been there done that have the t-shirt.
Next, I begin(again) with the backstory:
When I look back with enlightened eyes, I can easily identify periods in my childhood that might have indicated that I would end up where I am with what I have. The name calling, the teasing, your boobs are bigger than my sisters, all the crap that I would rather forget but some reason those are the memories I retain. I even recall a point where my mother (Nurse) palpated my breasts but didn't give me a reason as to why.
Regardless of all those bad memories of my mammaries. The testosterone I did have, (don’t know if it was an issue as was never tested), but it finally kicked in and I eventually developed into your typically run of the mill average joe character. Not a six pack, roid rage gym jock, nor a sedentary, morbidly obese bloke. Just average, fit, 6'2" broad shouldered dude. I worked on a farm did normal things. Went to college, love, marriage, kids, career... "normal". At least as in definition to we all have been brainwashed into believing what the definition of normal is.
Then Fall of 2019... Something is wrong... My nipples are always erect and feel off. I mention this to my wife and I make an appt. Doc runs bloodwork and returns nothing out of the ordinary. Even the notes say "No Evidence of gynecomastia", which at the time I didn't even know was a word. So, I monitor, things do not get better. In 6 months’, time I can feel lumps under my nipple and the sensitivity is escalating. The rub of even a t-shirts fabric is an annoyance. My areolas are puffy at times. I go back in. mammogram number 1 performed. Guess what "EVIDENCE of gynecomastia" E hormone above average for a male my age, T 3 times the highest normal level, SHBG almost 4 times normal high-end value. All other bloodwork is fine no evidence markers for any tumor activity that would mess with my endocrine system. Doc has no answers.
Surgery is offered. I go through consultation but am rejected for insurance and turned away even though it was a course of action being suggested by the docs. I talk it over with my wife. She is confused as am I but after other options for concealment, we arrive at the conclusion that maybe I should try a few sports bras. Life goes on things progress. I continue having bloodwork my hormones seem to spike inexplicably from time to time most noticeably in the fall. My wife informs me that its time I moved into something else after I mention things are uncomfortable and at this point its pointless to deny her reasoning.
I try to be discrete but there is no denying what I have from whatever reasons. It’s hard to conceal the fact I am a 44yr old man with 38-D, 40-C breasts.
That’s about it.
I thank you all for sharing your insights and stories on this site. Its nice to know there are others in the same situation coming to grips with acceptance of the hand we were dealt for whatever reason it may be.
