Agreed.
I've only had my levels checked when I had initial onset in early 2019. Shortly after my Dr. retired and finding a new one was difficult when covid hit and things were being figured out how to manage general visits. I honestly haven't been to a dr since then and have seen take home hormone tests in walgreeens and stuff but have always wondered how accurate they were and at the price I felt like it wasn't worth it, always waiting for things to balance on their own, and as they haven't, just losing interest in caring.
Most women's breasts I read are actually more fat than glandular and not common are breasts dense fibrous tissue. Which when it comes to mammograms I hear is much better for finding things which of course we all hope no one ever finds anything on those other than just healthy breasts.
I can relate to the boozy night with the guys. In my 20s it was tough to remember the weekends lol. When I got married and had kids I blamed the detaching from that on just focusing on family, being too tired from work, money needed to go elsewhere, but truth was, I just didn't like them anymore. Something shifted and wasn't till the last year I realized why it did, but just felt that part of my life was just and ending chapter, growth as a part of life, maturity...when in reality it was just I no longer felt comfortable around guys. Their jokes, their smell, their habits, it was just boring dull and gross to me. Finding myself looking at them whether they were previous friends or just general observation, going "is that what I was like". I found so much more comfort in talking to women, being part of "girl talk". And being in the company with women. When my wife and I go out with friends, I find myself sitting with the women while the men go off to talk sports politics and economics. I find they welcome me and don't ask me if I want to go in the other room with the guys. They ask for my opinion on things and it's nice to feel like I belong there. When a task needs done I'm rarely someone they ask to come join for help. I'm perfectly capable, I'm strong, tall enough, I'm pretty handy, but something just seems to tell them to ask others instead of me to help with masculine things. Which is fine, I never think "why didn't they ask me" I never volunteer I never jump at the opportunity, I'm happier sipping coffee talking about things with the women.
Even in relationships I have never felt comfortable being the one to make a first move, the aggressor and protector, the come home push against the wall and let's get to it. I have always been the person who lets them take control and lead me to what they wanted. I've never felt comfortable being the dominant person. I'm uncomfortable making decisions, I do the cooking cleaning and laundry while my wife does the more masculine roles of home duties. She comes up behind me and smacks my backside while I'm the one who asks if I can have a hug. She plays on her phone a lot while I watch romance movies and tearing up. When my wife is being aggressive in an opinion, I am more emphatic and trying to put myself in the topic of conversation's shoes.
It's a shame Beta Male is often characterized as someone who is some feminine for lack of better words, sissy. When it really is just a personality type of submitting or resigning/deferring to others. It isn't a sign of anything other than just being more relaxed rather than controlling or dominant in situations. I think many of us could agree we are Beta Males. And I think personally between beta and alphas, the beta's are probably a happier, relaxed more satisfied bunch when it comes to day to day.