I thought I'd start a diary with 1 week to go before I get my gyne removed.
I'm inviting all guys here into my psyche. Maybe you might relate (or not). Take what you can. Plus, I feel I'm giving back to the gyne community because without this site, I know I wouldn't have done anything about my condition. This story might sound familiar because I've already posted bits and pieces of it in the last few months but this will be my post op and pre op thread so I'm going to try and fit everything into this.
I'm feeling really good. I know I'll be somewhat nervous as my surgery day draws near. For the past 2 weeks after I wake up, I look in the mirror and say to myself, soon my boobs will be gone. I'll be able to walk around the house with my shirt off or wear the tightest t-shirt I can get my hands on. I've been working out for the past year and I get to finally show it off. Maybe I'm being presumptuous because I have heard and seen some botched up surgeries but for now, I'm going to stay optimistic. I'm sure all those negatives thoughts will be clouding my mind by next week.
Zardoz got his surgery about 10 days ago and he looks great. His condition is different from mine but still reassuring considering we're both using the same doctor for the surgery. Dr. Fielding for those of you who don't know, is considered to be one of the best doctors out there. Zardoz flew all the way from Vancouver (over 2000 km) to Toronto to get his surgery done by Fielding. That says a lot.
I had purchased some tight t-shirts last year because I said to myself at that time, I will workout to reduce my gyne and I'll wear them after. Not knowing that this tactic doesn't work, I worked my butt off for over a year in an attempt to get rid of my boobs. It didn't work. I lived on the treadmill, benched at least 3 times a week and ate well. I got into pretty good shape but still had my gyne. I think most guys can relate to this.
Anyways, I'm hoping to wear those tight t-shirts a few weeks after my surgery. I'll probably wear it to the gym.
I haven't told anyone about my surgery. Not my girlfriend, parents, sister or close friends. I got some flack for this because a lot of guys thought that I should at least trust my girlfriend with the news because she'll be the first one to notice when we have sex. It's not as if I don't trust my girlfriend but I've been so guarded when it comes to this that I don't discuss it with her and she has never brought it up with me. It's not like I prance around the house with my shirt off. When we have sex, I'm naked but we both tend to focus on different areas at that time. I'm sure she knows it's there but I don't think she considers it a big deal. More of a reason to tell her right? Still no in my mind.
I've already started a string of lies that will camouflage my gyne operation. It's a tricky juggling act because women can sure ask a lot of meddling questions. My surgery is set for next Wednesday and I've already planned to go to the gym on the Tuesday. When I come back from the gym, I will tell her I dropped some weight on my chest and it hurts like hell. I've already booked the 13th, 14th and 15th off from work but she doesn't know that.
I've already told her that I'll be at an accounting workshop on the Wednesday. Obviously, there is no workshop. I'll be at St. Joseph's in downtown Toronto. I'll call her from the hospital. I'll tell her I admitted myself because the chest pains were too much. She'll ask me why I didn't choose a hospital closer to home and I'll tell her the workshop was close to this hospital and changed my mind about going because of the pain.
I'll have my operation and I'll pray to God that it goes off without a hitch. I'm hoping to get out of there early. I'll have a friend come and get me (can't leave the hospital without someone to assist in getting you home). I'll tell my friend the same story. He'll take me back home. I'll tell them they had to cut me open because blood started to build up in my chest region. I'll heal at home over the next few days and I'll be back to work on Monday.
I know this story may have some holes in it but I'm going to do everything in my power to keep it from everyone I know.
Know this: If your gyne bothers you so much, I suggest you do something about it. I would have never thought I would be getting surgery for this and I still find it strange that I am but I'm looking at the big picture. My life after surgery. The toughest thing for me was getting the ball rolling. I was embarrassed and I felt very alone in my search for an answer. I even felt nervous when I registered on these boards. All I can think of is next summer when I'm calling friends to go to the beach or teaching my son how to swim.
The Nike motto is 'Just Do It.' That's my motto as well.
Will check in again tomorrow and will discuss embarrassing moments.