Went to see my doctor today. I was nervous and worried at how he might react, but I did have a level of confidence in him as he has been very good in the past (concerning general health matters).
As I was sat in the reception waiting to go in I could feel myself welling up, tears were forming but I fought them back. Its taken a long time to get this far, many ups and many more downs. I went there with the intention of trying to get across to him how much it effects my every living moment.
As i stepped in the door I confidently and with semi forced smile greeted him and sat down. As soon as I went to tell him what I was there for I broke down crying. In a way I had a feeling I might react like this. I have tried my hardest to suppress my emotions concerning this...illness...for so long and the flood gates were certainly open at that moment in time.
Looking back at it I am sort of grinning to myself when I consider his reaction. He sat there semi taken-a-back and partly sympathetic. I was desperately trying to gain my voice but unable to due to my blubbering.
To cut a long conversation short. He was very understanding and totally aware of what I was describing both physically and emotionally. He examined me and as I already knew - diagnosed gynecomastia.
One thing that resonated with me was the following; he said "I wish you had of come to see me earlier". - So do I. I am having a blood test next week just to check the hormones situation and he is going to contact a surgeon, who he said would be just right.
Sorry (for those of you who bothered to read the above) was a bit long winded, but felt I needed to write it down.
I am still concerned about who will do the operation. How many times they have done this surgery before etc? How do I go about checking this? Do I just ask him? Also what procedure he will use. Some of you have mentioned lipo and others cutting away the tissue. Whats best?
I also read one of the recent posts that seems to mention pain rather a lot. Concerned the lipo (if thats what i have) is going to hurt a lot.
I am a slightly happier person for having been to see him and it’s the first step hopefully in maybe sorting out something that has consumed and controlled my life for far too long now.
What are we without hope? And there is certainly hope for us all.
thank you to those of you who took the time to read the above.