Can someone in this entire web site give me a hand and Help me? this is real, I cant take this anymore. Please HElp me.
yes.
but you're going to have to be a lot more specific. do you want to know how to deal with it yourself, how to deal with parents, what realistic expectations are for surgery, are you going into the military, are you getting hassled by peers, did you have to play shirts and skins yesterday, what's on your mind?
it's not strictly about just manning up, gyne just sucks. but whatever it is, other people know what it's been like. some people not as bad, other people guaranteed even worse. the fact you found these boards however is a really really really good start