THE DAYS AFTER SURGERY (1 - 3)I'm addressing these days together because they are really mostly the same.
I've had a bit of pain. Reading people's surgery experiences on here, most people say that they feel 'discomfort' more than pain... When I'm completely still, there's not much pain. But if I get up, reach for something, carry a glass of water, change clothes, go to the toilet...there's a bit of pain. That said, it's probably down at the 3/4 mark, really, and I haven't even been very diligent with taking my pain killers. There's a packet of endone here going begging if anyone wants it.
So, what's it been like? Well, kinda depressing. I can't move much so all I do is watch Netflix or walk around the house getting food or cups of tea. I've walked up to the post office or the milk bar which has been fine, but the steps are slow and a little painful. I'll probably be off work all week.
That said, I did have the amazing experience of having a shower. It was completely surreal to take off the compression vest (partially because it is just so, so, so, annoying!) and to see my new chest - completely flat. My nipples are all smooshed under the waterproof dressings and there are weird dents across my 'pecs' from where the compression vest digs in, but as it's only a couple of days in, I'm really not worried about it. It's flat, and it looks weird. Sounds normal, right guys? Right?
That said, there's really not a lot of bruising. I'm kind of a funny colour all over my chest and the compression sort of forces everything into weird spots (it makes me look like I have a little pot belly because the compression is weakest at the zip which is in the middle). I really hate the vest. Did I mention I hate the vest?
Showers are quick and joyless affairs. I delicately scrape soap across the smelly bits and then rinse off and hop back into the vest. I know it's paranoid, but I am trying to spend as small amount of time as possible out of the vest. Once a day I check to make sure the padding under the vest and on top of my nipples is in the right spot, but I don't take the vest completely off for that. I want to be the model patient.
Sleeping is more of a pain. I'm still not used to sleeping on my back. I woke up at 4 am this morning thinking I had stomach cramps and could do nothing but put my hands on my stomach and pray they'd go away. Then I remembered someone on here said that he got back pains from sleeping on his back. I got up, walked around, and the pains went away! Then I got back to sleep and was up a few hours later with the back pain. It's a horrible way to sleep, but it's sleep so I'm not complaining.
I don't want to get my hopes up and I want to be realistic about the possible results, but I am quietly feeling really optimistic. Even just walking around the house in the vest I can't believe how flat my chest is. I can't wait to be able to walk freely without the vest and start living my new life. I haven't cried yet, but I know it's inevitable that I'm going to have a big emotional outburst about it.