I won't deny that I carry myself different when I am out in crowds vs safe at home. Only my wife really knows how busty I have become.
It does hurt that I try to hug loved ones differently as to not give up to the truth. Just because I accept what happened with me means others will.
Larger t-shirts, hoodies, slouching, crossing arms, rubbing hands different body posturing. even moving to keep people I know out of having a profile view. that part of it is exhausting and a tax on how I wish things could be.
I just wonder if the damn will even break. Really am paranoid about that who is going to call me out..