Hi Paul, sorry its taken so long to get back to you. Anyway heres how it went.
Arrived at the city and went to the plastic surgery ward, which is about 2 meters away from the previous place i was seen, didn't have to wait too long. Got called to see Mr Khan and i went into the room with a young blond nurse. He was sitting on his chair. A stocky guy,quite tall - typical surgeon look about him. The nurse stood at the side. I was thinking ' ok you can go now', but she remained. As well as that there was another women in there, sitting on the chair facing him. She was wearing a suit and was obviously some trainee surgeon shadowing him for experience etc..
So after he introduced himself this is the basic conversation:
Khan: so how long have you had this problem?
Me: about 3-4 years at least
K: and it bothers you
M: yes, i cant do the things i enjoy, take my top off, wear certain clothes. Subject to nicknames and abuse etc etc.
K: are you in good health?
M: yes
K: are you taking any medication?
M: no
K: any steroids or supplements.
M: no steroids, just Creatine >>>(this was a mistake~)
K: thats a steroid, yes?
M: no its a supplement for increasing performance in atheletes.
K: what is the name?? Creat-?
M: Creatine,
(he turns bewildered to the nurse and student)-k: have u heard of this?
the nurse stated that it is available in health food stores. Then the student said - 'maybe it is in the book.' She went away and grabbed a medical book, after 2 minutes 'no its not there'
M: its produced naturally in the body.
K: ok, im not sure if its a steroid
M: its not a steroid, definitely not!
K: ok, can we have a look then?
I took my top off an he pondered for about 5 seconds,
K: hmmm - we may have a problem here.
I thought he was talking about my chest and i started to get excited that maybe things may finally be moving in the right direction.
K: the problem is,(he poked around for about ten seconds) a procedure like this may leave a concave effect, and you may end up with your chest looking worse. (to me this was a like a flashing red light- it gave me the impression that although he was correct about the possibility of leaving an indent,he wasn't confident in his ability to do the procedure!)
k: i don't think there is anything i can do for you.
M: is it because of the size? or..?
K: i just dont think you would get good results. I think you could go the gym and work on it but i cant do anything for you?
M: it is pretty noticeable, i have tried working at the gym, it doesn't help.
K:yes, it wont help it may make it look worse, (then why 5 minutes ago did he tell me to go to the gym?) The reason i believe this side is bigger is because the muscle is bigger on that side. because you are right-handed (which he asked). My advice is to stop whatever exercise you do for chest.
(i couldn't believe it!. The argument continued for a while back back and forth, i was clutching at straws- i hadn't wasted my time sitting around waiting rooms etc to be told this)
M: do you thinks its noticeable.
K: not really - i would happy if i had a chest like you. (well then you can cut it off and take it home for all i care!- He made a pitiful attempt at a muscular pose- bringing his 2 fists together to his waist. I wasnt seeing the funny side. I felt like i was in a 1970s horror movie where the camera spins round and round and floating heads are zooming in and out laughing at you from all directions.)
M: have you done many procedures for this? (pointless asking this now!)
K: A little (yeah right!), There was guy in before and his problem was obvious and i looked and said yes, straight on the waiting list,(this isn't what i wanted to hear and god help that guy if he has this clown standing over him, scalpel in hand!)
M: there is fibrous tissue there which you can feel, isn't there?
K: no there is not, i don't really know what the options are, but surgery is not for you. ( i felt like saying, i 'll tell you the options. i can spend the rest of my life miserable and sweating with t-shirts on at the beach, on holiday etc or you can lend me a fiver for a length of rope! Sorry, of course i wouldn't do that but he pissed me off big time!)
On that note i left, rejected and embarrassed. I contemplated my next move and have been since. Any advice on where to go from here? My GP had said when he referred me back to the City that if they wont do it then he would refer me White-Abbey hospital. Only problem is i don't want to go there knowing the same may happen or get stuck with an inexperienced surgeon. I've been thinking about private, but with 2 children and a household to support i really cant afford it!!