My depressing story & quest for a good doctor in LA?

[negsdavid]

So yeah! I've pretty much had gynomastia ever since I was a teen. I've been a pretty much sad, depressed, and painfully shy person all my lifetime. It started in elementary school, always being the "Fat kid" in class and continued through junior high/highschool. I had nicknames like "Big Dave" "Big D" and "Biggz". Junior high/high school were pretty much the worse years of my life. I really hated every second. I even thoughts of suicide. I never had a girlfriend, didn't have any real friends, and the friends I did have were ones that befriended me to get a kick out of making fun of me all day. And the sad part is, I actually enjoyed being friends with these people. Try to figure that one out. ? Then, to top things off I was given these man breasts and a small penis. Wow, thanks a lot!!! lol.

I have very low self esteem and can't help but think I look terrible. I just went through a major weight loss through diet & excersize (went from 365 to 230) and been that way for almost 3 years. Yea, yeah...i know. Congrats right? Good work man! Way to go! I've heard it all....To me it's no big deal because I am still not happy. And besides, it wasn't even that hard to do. I get tons of looks from women everywhere I go but that don't matter because the bottom line is...I just dont like the way I look. I dont like myself and am not happy with the way I look, period. I look fine with clothes on but without clothes my body just looks, for lack of a better word, WEIRD. I'm 6'1 and in pretty good shape. I diet and excersize 4 to 5 times a week. I am pretty muscular and would have a great body if it weren't for all the tons of lose skin flabbing all over my stomach and chest!!!! I can not get rid of it no matter how hard I try. Im so young and figure I have so much life to live that I might as well do something about it so I can finally be free and love myself and live life. Right now, I can't even talk to people without thinking negative thoughts about myself and the way I look. Its so bad I have a hard time looking people in eyes. I just feel so ashamed of myself for some reason and can't help it. I just don't know what the hell I should do anymore, im so jacked up and just feel like giving up.

I've decided to finally just go under the knife. Screw it! I'm 24 now and sick of having to worry about my flabby body and chest sticking out. I've tried everything to get rid of it. I have to wear underarmor vest to mash down my lose skin and flabby chest. It's pretty embarrassing to get intimate with a girl and have this thing on. I just want to be able to be normal and live a normal life like the rest of the world.

If anyone can help me, please let me know. I need someone to point me in the right direction because I have no idea where to go. I need a good recommended doctor near LA who can help me get rid of my breasts and loose skin. I work a 9-5 job and make about $2500/month. I'm not sure how much all of this will cost but I am willing to pay for it. I don't know if I can pay it all at once but maybe in payments or something. I just can't stand living like this anymore.

Thanks people.

[negsdavid]

aw crap I posted in the wrong forum.

Thanks for that link im going to check it out

[negsdavid]

Do you have any names of the gyne specialist I can look at?