So stressed out

[Immy notts]

Hi, I just joined. I'm so stressed out with everything.  I relapsed on heroin in December 2020 and in March 2021 I got on methadone to get off it. Before the relapse I was clean 7 years. I've never had gyno. I work out regularly and never taken steroids. During the relapse I put on some weight as I was eating like crap. Anyway after 2 months on 60ml methadone my right chest started to hurt. And it's been puffy with agonising pain when touched of knocked by accident. I can't feel a lump. Just tenderness.
 I went to the doctor and my testosterone was so low. 2.9 . I found out methadone lowers testosterone.  So I've lowered my dose and managed with alot of struggle to get it down to 16ml. The pain is still there. Doctors are taking ages. I have just been referred to breast clinic but it's in 2 weeks. I feel like crying and I can't sleep properly as it's all I'm thinking about. I really cant cope at the moment. 
I've been working out and my muscle Is still dense but under a layer of fat. I'm losing bodyfat but since my bodyfat has decreased from 26 % to 22% my right chest hasn't decreased like my left has. I'm 40 years old by the way

My doctor can't say that it's gyno but I know when testosterone goes down men can develop gyno. Any advice and support is welcome. I have never posted my problems online ever. I always deal with my stuff on my own but this is breaking me. 

Thanks

[blad]

Work on the big issues in your life first, the rest falls into place easier after that.

[taxmapper]

Ditto on what they said. 
Focus on the good stuff. 

The gyno, it is kinda weird and can throw you, but your doing fine otherwise and that's what is important. 

[SideSet]

Hang in there. This has become a pretty supportive accepting non judgmental place