Ok, time for another update. I just went in for my AM blood tests. I cant believe I dragged my heels this long but It was mostly due to the holiday season and all that so honestly there wasn’t a lot I could have done to do this any quicker. I have an appointment with the family doctor on the 7th I don’t know if the tests will have gotten back to him by then or not but hopefully they have and I can find out where to go next with this.
Christmas break has given me a fair amount of time to think this over and I am finally over all my apprehension about getting the surgery. To be honest as soon as I got the blood test and I was finally moving forward with this I did not feel the relief I was hoping for I was honestly kind of dreading it, I kept trying to think of reasons not to go forward, like oh I cant take the time off work, I cant afford the surgery ect... but after some reflection I realized that my limiting beliefs we're caused by the fact that I really care about the judgments others will make about me because of this. After I realized that it actually gave me the relief I was looking for because I was finally being honest with myself.
I now feel a lot more comfortable moving towards surgery because at least I am being honest, the reason I want to get the surgery is because a part of me is still that kid on the playground everyone teased and as much as I am not that person anymore there are still a few things that prevent me from completely moving on and gyne is one of them.
Today is Christmas and we had all the family over today and I noticed something, gyne seems to run in my dads side of the family. My grandfather is in his 80’s not but you can very much tell that he has a larger amount of breast tissue than is normal. My father who is in very good physical shape has a very minor case and my uncle who is extremely thin actually has a pretty serious case that can be seen pretty easily even with a thick polo shirt on. This doesn’t actually help me in anyway but it does make me feel less alone.
I am re posting my pics from Aug 30th so that I can keep track of all my progress in this thread. I am also going to be taking some more photos when I hit 170lbs which shouldn’t be long considering I am down to 172.7lbs, here’s hoping all the Christmas treats haven’t fattened me up too much.