Hello guys, frankly im going insane, thinking about suicide
im 30 and i had the surgery when i was 17, about 13 years ago, i didnt know back then about what is a good surgeon and what is not, i just went for the first option because ive just wanted to remove the breasts and my parents didnt realy care, id say that i had grade 3 gyno, as for the results the left side is ok but there is a crater on the right side, the surgeon told me before surgery that i might lose sensation in the nipple and i was ok with that but i goddamn lost sensation in all of my chest, also i still have some pain when i push the nipples.. ide say that i have lost sensation in about 3 inches in each direction from the areola ..
it always feels like some one had injected a local anesthesia to my breast and it never went away.. its like there is a part of skin in my chest that doesnt belong to me,its very hard to live like that and i tend to be depressed because of it, think about it a lot and really feel it, also everything feels stuck, moving my hand from side to side is not fun at all, ive immediately felt after the surgery that ive been butchered, the skin was extremely red and blue
how often does it happens and what is the reason for such an extended feel loss? is that even normal? what can be done about the presistant feeling of nipple soreness , chest soreness and "stuck" and lack of sensation?
I'm also sorry to hear about the results of your surgery! However I would like to address the fact that there is so much more to your life that you can focus on and move forward!
You must have positive things in your life that can make you less depressed! My personal experiences, I've leaning to look at what I can do instead of what I can't do! I've been through 8 surgeries now. 3 have been major back surgeries, 2 total knee replacements, and 3 were about the same as getting gyno.
I lost my testicles after a vasectomy and I now have 46H size breast, however I'm not going to go through the process of removing them because I'm still dealing with spine issues which I think are more important!
I need to use a wheelchair to go any distance, I still can walk out to the garage to get into my truck to go places and this is one of the things I'm thankful for! Another is that I can still walk to the toilet and not be stuck in the wheelchair peeing in a bag!
I had to move to a power wheelchair recently because my left arm stop working again due to neck issues. I have had problems with my neck in the past with pitched nerves.
I'm thankful for the fact that I served my country for 11 years and all my medical cost are covered by the VA, as I'm a disabled vet, however there was a time that I was fit as a fiddle, a Navy diver!
As a civilian I was a general contractor, carpenter by trade strong as an ox and go on 5 hours of sleep, but now I take it least 2 naps a day.
I'm thankful for being here to see my children grow up and my grandkids be born and grow too!
I had a heart attack at the age of 37, had to go on disability at the age of 40!
I'm now 59, and I thank God for each and every day!
I believe that if you learn to see that the glass is half full, each and every day will go better for you then if you see them as half empty.
If I'm having a hard time seeing the glass half full, then I think of places that take care of children like St. Jude's, and that brings me back to reality, no child should have to go through any cancer or bad stuff that they go through!
God bless, and welcome to the forum! I hope that we can help!
Bob