Fat, Gynecomastia & Me

[musicmoobs93]

I'm a new member here, and I've had gynecomastia for over 20 years. 
I had the (dis)pleasure of getting gynecomastia during my puberty years taking Risperdal for mood disorder
During my preteen years during puberty, I thought it was a great idea to drink soy milk instead of regular milk (since the mucus made me congested). Little did I know how it would affect me. As a result of it, drinking soy milk + weight gain from meds + Risperdal = male breasts you see in this picture

I know that I need to lose weight in order to get the surgery but I did so because it made it easier for people to explain in case if they ever noticed my chest. I have recently been wearing bras for support and it's been pretty nice to have that support (I've got a big pair, hehe😅)

I've been in denial of this issue for decades and now I need support to get the help I need. 

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Weight loss is likely a great idea for overall health.

For long term breast management you may well find that continuing to wear a bra is all you need and the simplest solution.

[musicmoobs93]

I dealt with many years of insults and abuse during my K-12 years. I was a band kid and was intially lean and skinny before the meds really started taking hold on my body. My peers made it a point to make fun of my growing breasts, with the girls passing me up and the guys constantly harassing me and abusing me (twisters, groping, grabbing, slapping, hitting my chest)

Girls: "Hahahaha, where's your bra???"

That experience has echoed and haunted me for many, many years and was the core reason why I didn't wear a bra until very recently. I'm grateful that my girlfriend understood me even back when we were younger and never made fun of my gynecomastia and that she comes with me to buy a handful of bras I have recently - and the support from both her and the bras have been nice.

Guys: "Hahahahahaha they look like girls titties!" (K-12 insults) "Wow, they feel like the real deal..." (post-HS/college days) "I want your chest...it looks so much better than my own" (from a trans female pre-op)

A lot of these experiences I've had made me feel like a freak of nature, an object of pleasure and somebody to be envied and frankly, all I wanted was to have this literal weight off me because I've suffered through a lot of trauma/abuse and had been coping with several forms of addiction as a means of coping with it (weed, food, porn addiction) and all it's done is make the problem worse instead of working towards a solution. 

I did get a settlement for the Risperdal lawsuit but I blew it all on BS and helping out my Mom with some financial hardship. I was too strung out being an addict for me to even face the fact that I wasn't happy having male breasts but I just coped like I normally did. 

Now, I just want to be able to get on with my journey and lose weight and remove the excess glandular tissue. After that, if I gain the weight back, I'll just be a fat guy with regular ol moobs. But a better outcome would just be healthier living in general. 

[taxmapper]

I dealt with many years of insults and abuse during my K-12 years. I was a band kid and was intially lean and skinny before the meds really started taking hold on my body. My peers made it a point to make fun of my growing breasts, with the girls passing me up and the guys constantly harassing me and abusing me (twisters, groping, grabbing, slapping, hitting my chest)

Girls: "Hahahaha, where's your bra???"

That experience has echoed and haunted me for many, many years and was the core reason why I didn't wear a bra until very recently. I'm grateful that my girlfriend understood me even back when we were younger and never made fun of my gynecomastia and that she comes with me to buy a handful of bras I have recently - and the support from both her and the bras have been nice.

Guys: "Hahahahahaha they look like girls titties!" (K-12 insults) "Wow, they feel like the real deal..." (post-HS/college days) "I want your chest...it looks so much better than my own" (from a trans female pre-op)

A lot of these experiences I've had made me feel like a freak of nature, an object of pleasure and somebody to be envied and frankly, all I wanted was to have this literal weight off me because I've suffered through a lot of trauma/abuse and had been coping with several forms of addiction as a means of coping with it (weed, food, porn addiction) and all it's done is make the problem worse instead of working towards a solution.

I did get a settlement for the Risperdal lawsuit but I blew it all on BS and helping out my Mom with some financial hardship. I was too strung out being an addict for me to even face the fact that I wasn't happy having male breasts but I just coped like I normally did.

Now, I just want to be able to get on with my journey and lose weight and remove the excess glandular tissue. After that, if I gain the weight back, I'll just be a fat guy with regular ol moobs. But a better outcome would just be healthier living in general.

This is pain I understand. 
I did not grow breasts until much later, but the teasing is something that truly did scar me deeply.   i was looked on as a "girl", being called "faggot' "gay" and all the usual slurs. 

Turning to what made you feel better also has provided you with a skill you can defiantly use. 
But also consider that your body is what it is. Sculpt it yes, the breasts probably wont go away except through surgery. That is your choice.  But keep in mind that all the males in this group understand that feeling.  Youll be ok.   Keep your head up. 

[Parity]

Musicmoobs93,  

  I'm glad you found yourself here.  There is no judgement here and none of us will ever push you into having surgery later or living with it.  We all have come to accept what life and genetics have given us in our own way.  

  It sounds like your youth was one not unlike many here.  That said, it doesn't make it any easier.  Sorry.  Kids, and many adults are just plain cruel, mean, ignorant and down right stupid at times.  I feel you have the worst behind you.  You stated its time for a change.  See you for who you are and maintain that image, work on keeping a positive attitude and work on a healthier you.  Start on the weight as you said you wanted.  Walk, it clears the mind and will help you drop a few pounds and you will feel better about your self for it.  Again, I'm not calling you out just Wishing you the best.

  And remember, we are all her to support you in all you do.

Parity  

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As with others who developed breasts during their teen years, there are unique pressures during that age group in dealing with having boobs. That age group is not shy in expressing their thoughts to anyone who appears outside of the norm to them. As with many here, I was constantly told that I needed a bra. Curiosity lead me to try one in my early teens to discover they were right that I did fit a bra. Although seeing myself in a bra and noting how well it fit was a pivotal point in my acceptance of having boobs, I still found myself having to deflect the comments at school as I could not admit to them that they were right. 

I found quickly after trying a bra that I would have been satisfied to just wear one and get on with life but for the social pressures of fitting in as a kid wearing a bra. I did begin to dislike the feeling of unsupported breasts after experiencing how it felt to wear a bra. As I got older it was easier to do what was best for me rather than what was considered normal for everyone else. 

When I grew up there was no internet to discover that I was not the only boy who developed boobs or get an idea how others navigated the issue. We were in an information vacuum back then.  

[Benusa2]

I developed breasts as a preteen and hunched over for years trying to hide them. I finally had surgery when I was 20 which left me very flat. My chest started filling back out a few years ago though. I tried a bra for the first time and really wished I had tried one as a young person. I don’t mind having breasts so much now. I do worry about a bra showing when I wear one in public though. I think a bra could really help you and might be a good option to at least try around home. There are so many types it’s just a matter of finding a good fit and choosing what type is most comfortable for you. My preference is wireless bras without any padding. Wired bras offer more support. Sports bras can conceal them better but tend to mash the breasts. There are lots of good recommendations on here including some inexpensive bras.

[musicmoobs93]

Thank you for all the support and understanding, it means a lot. 

I didn't realize how much my gyne contributed to my self-esteem issues, depression, frustration and lack of wanting to live in and process reality at a young age. NO wonder I chose sex and drugs and food as a means of coping with what I had to live with and face in the mirror every time I was shirtless or taking a shower. Granted, I have other issues that help contribute to that but it was a main factor that has crippled me. 

I've been wearing bras for about a month now. I've been choosing to wear wirefree sports bras. Granted, they may flatten them a bit, but I feel it's better than wearing a binder because I do want them to be supported more than being smushed (bought a new pair last night 😄). I've found cheap options, too. In exercising, it just hurts having them swing around on my chest as I run foward so having the support is going to help me tons both inside and outside the gym. I tend to pick darker colors or sports bras and using an undershirt so that I won't draw attention to them, despite the weight gain making people not really notice my chest in any distinct way (which was the point why I gained weight so that they would look 'normal' to the outside world, and not looking 'weird' when I weighed less because they were much more noticeable at >250lbs than at <250lbs.