I need your prayers,support, and ideas.

[KeepFighting]

Havent been on in awhile. I have been doing well. I just finished my first week on my new "diet". I trained(1.5 BJJ classes) once this week, 2x drilled(20-50 mins of light sparring) once, and worked out 2x. So it was a below average week in terms of training. But considering things went down hill with that girl i was seeing, its been a great week regardless. I am thinking about training much more frequently (maybe 6-8 times a week). I hope everyone else is doing well!

[matthew1]

pics. I am a hairy bastard. It actually helps me feel more masculine. Would shave it off after surgery

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how bad do i got it (1-10)?

  i say a 8 or 9

[KeepFighting]

Things are going well. Its been 20 days on the diet and i lost about 6-7 pounds. I got my blue belt in BJJ, which is exciting. I am starting to train 9 hours a week. This was my first 9 hour week and it was rough but very satisfying. Moobs seem smaller, ill put up some pics once i get under 200.  Hope everyone is doing well.

[KeepFighting]

Under 200! They are definitely smaller , pics are coming up real soon, i have been slacking in training a little bit but i hope to be back to 4.5-9 hours a week again. I am also moving into a nicer place and am very excited about living with my friends and keeping this fight going till its over. Hope everyone else is well.

[Jackd]

Nice one, sounds like you're doing really well.. keep it up!

[anon643]

Under 200! They are definitely smaller , pics are coming up real soon, i have been slacking in training a little bit but i hope to be back to 4.5-9 hours a week again. I am also moving into a nicer place and am very excited about living with my friends and keeping this fight going till its over. Hope everyone else is well.

how much smaller dude? i'm very curious because i'm in a similar posiiton , 5'7 239, but from 267 i'm way to short to be this heavy. Keep fighting the good fight bro. I am doing the same at the same time right here with you. Good luck

[KeepFighting]

Okay i fell off the wagon bad. Its been 3 weeks and i have been out of training (started with an injury and hearing about the engagement of that girl i was fooling around with). I owe you guys pics but now i think i am up 8 pounds or so... back to square one? Anyway i am starting over on my diet and work out schedule , there is this girl in my history class i have to work up the nerve to ask out. Its been a rough 3 weeks and i wish i had more will power but i am not giving up. I need to take care of myself i will start posting again. Sorry anon that i cant give you updated pics like i promised. Hope everyone else is doing better. Be back soon.

p.s.- not all is bad though, i worked out alot of issues i had in therapy and am doing well in other areas. I have more friends and positive energy around me, and more insight into the true nature of my problem its not the moobs but more what i let them mean about me. This process is two things at once the easy one is the money-losing weight the hard one is supplying the underlying sense of self worth that lets me do the things i need to do for myself.

[matthew1]

Okay i fell off the wagon bad. Its been 3 weeks and i have been out of training (started with an injury and hearing about the engagement of that girl i was fooling around with). I owe you guys pics but now i think i am up 8 pounds or so... back to square one? Anyway i am starting over on my diet and work out schedule , there is this girl in my history class i have to work up the nerve to ask out. Its been a rough 3 weeks and i wish i had more will power but i am not giving up. I need to take care of myself i will start posting again. Sorry anon that i cant give you updated pics like i promised. Hope everyone else is doing better. Be back soon.

p.s.- not all is bad though, i worked out alot of issues i had in therapy and am doing well in other areas. I have more friends and positive energy around me, and more insight into the true nature of my problem its not the moobs but more what i let them mean about me. This process is two things at once the easy one is the money-losing weight the hard one is supplying the underlying sense of self worth that lets me do the things i need to do for myself.

 dont let  that ex ho' get you down!........  you    sound like ans awlsome dude, once you get   your issues worked out  you will beating the  girls away  with a broom stick

[KeepFighting]

Thanks for the kind words man. I went back in to train after a month off and pinched a nerve, going to be out a few more days... Its been a rough few weeks. On the bright side i am only up 5 pounds so if i get started again i will still have 5 pounds less from the last time around the cycle. I need to get an endocrine evaluation, i suspect i might have an issue there. I just need school to give me money this semester so i can pay for health insurance and get this thing checked out. The problem is that i dont have any energy and i waste whatever energy i do have. I will keep you guys posted. Hope everyone else is well.

[KeepFighting]

Okay im back!!!! This time its a done deal. 120 days to a new me! I will weigh 180 and be ready for a consultation with dr.bermant in 120 days. you guys grab some popcorn and watch this transformation.

[KeepFighting]

Day 4/120

 Things look real good. I am on track and nothing is going to stop me this time. I am not going to miss #993 or undershirts in general. I cant wait to be walking around this summer with F**king tank top! In other news i started talking to that chick in history. I can do this. I am doing this! Stay tuned for more good news.

[KeepFighting]

Day 10/120

  Was kind of depressed yesterday but i am learning to let that fuel me rather than deter me. My new viewpoint is that eating crap food makes me feel bad just like when people used to pick on me in high school. So since i wouldnt tolerate any of that bs anymore why should i tolerate my habits making me feel that way? So instead of falling into my old cycle of feel bad -> eat bad food (feel better for a few hours) -> feel worse. I just feel bad -> feel bad -> feel bad -> feel great! 110 more days till i have this thing down. ( I am going to shift to a less hardcore diet at that point , which basically means ill allow myself to eat less nutritious food/have a drink with my friends or a date but not when i am alone).

Today is going to be my first day back at BJJ (have been jumping rope and doing chin ups for the past few days). I am excited and a little anxious (i got injured the last two times i was there). I am going to warm up and drink lots of water to prepare. Wish me luck, hope everyone else is doing well!

p.s.-I will put pics up once i am under 200 again (i might already be but ill check today).

[KeepFighting]

Day 10/120 #2

update on current weight = 203!

Not that bad considering 2 months off dieting and exercising. Had a decent day back at training, going to make it in one more time this week and go for 3 next week. Bastards at the academy are so ripped... in a couple of years that will be me! I also got around to talking to that asian girl, i think it went well, lets see if i can get her to go out with me this weekend...wish me luck! man i could use a good girlfriend...hope everyone is doing well.

[KeepFighting]

Day 14/120

   The girl i finally had the nerve to talk to didnt show up to class this thursday  . I went looking for her but didnt have any luck, ill ask her out tuesday... man i wanted a date this weekend. My new attitude has been turning heads and i am back in training (2x this week, 3x starting next week). I got tossed around by some white belts so i am a little pissed but its really a result of my current conditioning. On the other hand school is going well and i am trying to get myself to see an endocrinologist soon (i dont have health insurance so i need to pay out of pocket). Hope everyone has a great weekend.

p.s- Oh yeah i think weight is down 1 pound (= 202) so 3 more pounds to go before new pics! (i think "they" are smaller).

[KeepFighting]

Day 17/120

 Finally caught up on my sleep and some! I am saving up sleep for the next 3 weeks, i have so much to do. I went to classes without the undergarment and was feeling a little insecure but i thought i should learn to live as i am while i work on transforming my body. I am feeling a little depressed and not feeling like doing anything but ill fight through it. Hopefully ill find some relief soon. Everyone have a great day!