SOMETIME I WONDER WHAT I DID DO DESERVE ALL THIS........... NOT ONLY DO I HAVE GYNO (I HOPE IT'S JUST EXCESS FAT) BUT REALLY BAD ACNE SCARS TOO THOSE REALLY DARK COLORED ONES (ON MY MID CHEST AND BACK A FEW ON MY FACE). ITS FUNNY CAUSE EVERYONE THOUGHT I TOOK STERIODS BEFORE BECAUSE OF THIS. A COUPLE OF THE GUYS AT THE GYM (TALKING AMONG THEMSELVES SAY) YEP THAT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOUR ON JUICE....... THEY WHERE JUST REFERING TO THE ACNE THOUGH....... CAUSE WHEN I HAVE CLOTHS ON MY GYNO DOES LOOKS LIKE A WELL DEVEOLPED CHEST.........
I HATE MYSELF WHEN I'M NAKED. PEOPLE ALWAY ASK WHY ARE YOU SO QUITE -I THINKS ITS BECAUSE I'M JUST REALLY UNHAPPY-
WHAT MAKES THIS EVEN WORSE IS I'M QUITE GOOD LOOKING. I BEEN ASKED TO DO SOME FITNESS MODELING A FEW TIMES (THEY JUST HAVENT SEEN ME WITH MY CLOTHS OFF), ON AVERAGE I WOULD HAVE A GIRL COME UP TO ME ONCE A DAY AND ASK ME FOR MY NUMBER FLIRT WITH ME SORTA THING -MAKE THAT TWO IF I GO CLUBBING OR DRINKING ON THE WEEENDS-, DAM I EVEN HAD GIRLS GET INOT A FIGHT OVER ME AT CLUBS A FEW TIMES (I'M NOT JOKING), BUT BECAUSE OF WHATS HIDDING UNDER MY CLOTHS I NEVER GIVE MYSELF OR THEM THAT CHANCE ALWAYS JUST SHOVING THEM OFF. EVERYONE THINKS I'M REALLY COLD OR UNFRIENDLY, NO I'M JUST NOT REALLY HAPPY THATS ALL....
THE FUNNIEST THING IS THAT MY ACNE WAS NOT ALWAYS THIS BAD...... IT WASN'T UNTIL I TRIED TO GO ON AN EXTREME CUTTING CYCLE (BY OVERTRAINING, CARDIO AND LOWING MY CALROIES) TO TRY TO LOSE MY BOOBS I STARTED TO BREAK OUT REALLY BAD. HAD TO TAKE ACCUTANCE WHICH MESSED UP MY LIVER AND WEAKENED MY BONES EVENTUALLY WAS THE CAUSE OF A HERNIATED DISK ON MY LOWER BACK.... NOW THAT I HAVEN'T WALKED PROPERLY FOR THE LAST TWO YEARS NOT ONLY DO I HAVE GYNO (WHICH SEEMS TO HAVE GOT WORSE, ACNE, BUT ALSO A GUT..........
SO WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS.....
I'M JUST GLAD THAT I GET TO START WORKING OUT LIGHTLY NOW....
