Childhood memories

[Glad2findU]

I must have been in grade 3 or 4 when I remember having a normal chest. I clearly remember that I started rubbing my nipples quite often. I don't know if it was because they were itching or I was just curious. I remember pressing right on the nipple and rubbing what I know now is the gland. I remember it being a net/web formed fiber feeling behind my nipple. I also remember this net form diminishing each time I rubbed it and my nipple at that stage becoming puffy. I think I recall my left nipple becoming puffy and then I kinda panicked and rubbed the right until it to became puffy.

Ever since I've had to face the challenges that many of us are facing. It's shaped my personality in mostly negative ways. I'm so glad that many kids today have access to the internet to research issues they are not comfortable talking about. Forums like this will save lives. I wish it appeared on the first page of Google when a search for, 'big nipples' is done, instead of all the porn and other junk comes up.

I have been chubby since I was a child. In grade 7 I started trying to exercise to cure the condition. 15 years later and was still trying up until recently. I booked surgery today for 3 months from now and I'm very excited. I hope to book swimming lessons in at year end. I've had a few girlfriends but was always ashamed of it and never committed to a long term relationship, I think largely due to it. I've been teased on several occassions throughout my life, by my closest of friends. I have often felt betrayed because of this and find myself not really having friends anymore because I keep my distance. Anyone that meets me will not have a clue because of my charming, lively confident personality in my concealed clothing. I have become a complete fraud.

[xelnaga13]

You're not a fraud. You're just doing what every other confident person does, by putting your insecurities aside and presenting the best you.

[Glad2findU]

Thanks.

[xelnaga13]

There are some things we just cant change about ourselves. If I could cure my aspergers I would be more confident... that's not an option. So instead I go to the gym and keep myself in great shape... my confidence in my appearance helps compensate for the insecurities I cannot remedy.