This is my story and hopefully how it will progress ...
I started receiving gyne when I was around 11 and I had never heard of anything like it so I didn't know what it was. I basically tried not to care and hoped that it would disappear, well it hasn't and I'm almost 21 now. Before I got gyne I was really physically active, I played soccer, tennis and bowling.
When it didn't get any better I first quit soccer (because of showering with the others ...), short thereafter I quit tennis and the only physical activity I was involved in was bowling. The problem with bowling was that we started playing games against other teams and it required me to shower not only with my team mates but the other team as well. So I gave up bowling when I was around 14 ...
I always loved doing physical activity ... but because of the gyne and that I had never heard or seen of anything like it I didn't know if it could be fixed or anything. So I started skipping school gym class as well, I almost failed in gym class because of this.
I gave up all physical activity and became a nerd, no need to off your t-shirt while playing games and drinking coke
. This of course made me fat, I had a little bit of fat on my body before that, but not as fat as I became during the years until 19. I basically gained weight during 14 -> 19 years old. When I was 19 I weighed close to 270lbs (due to no physical activity and being depressed, feeling like shit and eating junk food all the time (I didn't care about my physical health at all, and if I had continued I guess I would be dead before turning 40) ...).
I'm not what made me take care of my life, but I have done ... I decided that eating junk food, not exercising and not caring about my body wouldn't lead my anywhere ... so I started exercising on a regular basis, things that I didn't need to shower with others.
Started walking, bicycling, eating healthy and caring about myself. The main reason for trying to lose weight was that I thought the gyne would disappear ... well it hasn't but now I've lost lots of weight ... today I weigh 187lbs (almost 100lbs gone
). My gyne is really bad, I basically got a C-cup (I've tried bras and C-cup would be what I would need if I used bras ...). I've also started doing weight lifting but I don't shower with the others, I go home and shower by myself. I works ok, but I wish I would be able to shower with others, I wish I could go swimming with friends and all that sort of stuff.
The good thing now is that this year I got to know what gyne is and that it can be fixed. I went to a physician in May and I've got a new time in November (however this is not an operation date but like a checkup), my physician told me that I had his full support to getting it fixed and that he had friends that worked with psychology and that they could write recommendations (without me having to even talk to them or see them) that this was a BIG psychological problem for me.
He also told me that he would make the Swedish hospital system pay for this operation, because I said I didn't have the money for the operation (I don't) and that it was necessary for me. I payed $12 for my first visit and I will pay $8 for the checkup (including blood samples that my physician told me they need to take) and the operation will cost me a whopping $12.
So I will pay $32 total (if no other problems comes up) for getting this fixed (and maybe some costs for medications later). I don't know the exact time when I will get an operation date ... but my physician told me that an operation is likely to happen in January/February 2007 ...
I can't wait for it to get fixed, I can't even remember the freedom of being able to shower with others (or taking off shirts) and not having everybody STARING at my chest. After it is fixed I will pick up swimming (I love swimming but I don't do it now ... I guess all you can figure out why
), start playing soccer (with an amateur team) and going to beaches.
Why am I writing this? I don't know really, it just feels liberating to write this and getting answers from people that know how it feels.
If you got any questions I will answer them all (if I can), told my mom today (of course she knew about it (you CAN tell if I don't wear HUGE shirts), but she didn't know that I had went to see a physician for it), she's very supportive and told me that she would help me in any way she can.
It feels like the sun is shining on me again (even though I haven't had it fixed, but the knowledge that I will get it fixed)
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