Yeah Dilbert. Allot of us feel the same and it isnt going to change. Hopefully when its all fixed, my plan was to just put everything in the past and start anew.
Tenncast, its all good man. Im just gonna try and get through this. Life gets rough, I gotta remember that. Part of me had better hopes that all will be well in acouple months. Its just a more difficult road I gotta through.. I swear if I ever get rid of this gyne, nothing could ever really bother me again. Any life hard obstacle will be so much easier to get through, all because of this..
I talked to the nurse yesterday, we talked for awhile, and she made me feel more comfortable again. I thought she was blowing me off before, but I think shes trying to help. She says all of this is very normal with the swelling and pain. I guess she didnt want me to come in right away because shes unsure if its fluid build up, or because my body is shocked by the trauma, and making my chest swell unbelievably. She wanted me to come in monday.
Sooo.. I went to work last night.. things were going okayish.. I really need to go out and get some healthier things today though, a cop I work with and other employees were shocked at how pale I was.. I didn't notice because I see myself everyday I guess, and other things on my mind.. They just thought I looked like the walking dead.. I wonder if it has to do with the bloodloss from afew days ago. They wouldn't stop pointing it out.. So im gonna go and get some green veggies, get some more iron in my blood I guess.
Things got fucked around 2:30am. I just got off lunch, and I started to walk back to punch in. My manager was there, and looked at me, and instantly I felt my right chest swell up.. my god. It just felt like it wouldn't stop. if it already wasnt big enough, it just felt like it was going to explode, my skin was so stretched. I stood straight and didn't want her to notice, I kept switching my hands from my ribs to my chest. She told me instantly to go home.. I wanted to try and push though it, I told her let me go to the bathroom for a minute, ill get better.. I went to see if I was bleeding, I didn't see nothing unless the gause pads obsorbed everything. She came in and started questioning(she had good intentions, but she was asking to much!) I just said darn it, ill go. She wanted someone to give me a ride, but I said no. I got home, popped in two Tylenol '3' and the pain wouldn't let. It seemed because it was stretching my skin it affected my back and all, I was extremely uncomfortable but I ended up knocking out alittle over and hour later.
I wake and im unsure if my chest is still bigger than what it already was. no pain like yesterday, back to (below) normal. Surgeon's office is closed till monday, woopy! But im not gonna make an emergency call, im just gonna wait it out. Gonna try and go into work tonight, stick on the regester and not do anything else really.