Hi there Sad,
I really empathise with you.  As somebody who has has 2 surgeries over the long years, I have learned the hard lesson that surgery on the chest is often not much help to the gynecomastia in your head. I know all about it, the paranoia, the constant self-inspection, the days of appalling depression, the social anxiety, believe me I know it all too well.  Your posts above don't sound as weird to me as they obviously do to some other posters.  Your chest fine - better than mine will ever be.  But that is not the point, is it?
I am glad that you are going to conselling and I wish you all the best with it.  The goal is to establish some quality of life for yourself.  You have the physical side of your recovery from gyne behind you - now on to the others issues and you'll be just fine.  There's always gonna be bad days.  But there will be days of freedom and self-respect too.
Good luck!  You deserve it!
Kev